January of 2010 I found out I was pregnant .. what a surprise! Soon after we found out the pregnancy was ectopic (stuck in a fallopian tube, instead of where it should be). In March, I had to get a shot of Methotrexate and ... I was no longer pregnant. I would have been near 12 weeks at that time, since it was now 8 weeks since we found out.
This still hurts every day, except today, for some reason, I feel it a little bit more. I'm not even sure what brought it on but here we are, and so I decided to share with all of you!
I have a Pinterest Board for Harmony, when I post fun things, as well as general Pregnancy Loss pins. I found myself looking at my board today and searching for more to add. This is the exact moment I realized I should be sharing my thoughts.
While I explore rainbows and what thoughts I can put into words, I listen to Now I Sleep - solo piano by John Albert Thomas. Plus I just love that rainbow piano photo, don't you? I've never really written much of anything about the whole experience either, so this is rather new.
I love to organize things by color, just like the photo below, that I took myself using Instagram of Hubby's tons of Gatorade :) You don't want to see my home desk drawer of sharpies!!
I am already feeling better, I thank you all for allowing me to express myself.
I leave you with our Cutie Patootie, Riley. You can't hide that smile!!
And our Kitties (Ninja & Jax). :)
Do you ever feel like you just want to hold on to your emotions for a little? Sometimes I just like to sit and think, even if it's going to bring all those upsetting feelings out, maybe it's just a way to feel close to Harmony again.